Brain Training
In the first months after Michael passed away, I would try to go about my normal life and do my normal life things like go to Target or the grocery store. I learned very quickly, that if I went in there on "auto-pilot" I would end up with things in my cart like men's deodorant or body wash that I didn't need anymore. When I'd realize it was a mix of feeling upset, crazy, and a little mad at myself. Like, "duh, Beth, figure it out". After a few such trips to the store, I began the process I now think of as "re-training my brain". Instead of wandering through a store, I started walking through stores purposefully. I remember very vividly being at Target one day before a trip to Florida. I kept saying things to myself (not out loud) like , boys flips flops yes, girls flips flops yes, women's flip flops yes, men's flips flops no we don't need those. I would do the same thing at the grocery store, because there were several...